DRABBLE: On Hiding Emotion (Bellatrix/Voldemort)

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Title: On Hiding Emotion
Pairing: Bellatrix/Voldemort
Prompt: As a City Upon a Hill
Rating: PG
Word Count: 260
Summary: Bellatrix can try to justify her behaviour with rationality, but it is easy to see through.
Link to Prompt Table: http://gamma-x-orionis.livejournal.com/9118.html

Emotions were scorned by the Dark Lord, and for good reason.  They clouded judgement.  They complicated matters that should have been simple, and they made it difficult to come to the right decisions.  The heart was a handicap to the mind.

It was, however, a necessary handicap.  No one – not even the Dark Lord – could erase emotion completely.  They could only mask it, suppress it, ignore it.  And while the Dark Lord was so skilled at doing this that there were times in which Bellatrix believed he felt nothing at all, despite knowing differently, she found that she herself showed her feelings far to easily.

When she had tried, early on, to justify what she felt for – what she was doing with – the Dark Lord to others, she had told them in no uncertain terms that it was solely a logical course of action.

“I am lying with him because it will bring us honour, power and safety,” she told Rodolphus – poor, tearful Rodolphus – when he begged her to explain why she preferred the Dark Lord to him.

“That’s not true,” Rodolphus had said, and, though Bellatrix maintained that it was, she had to admit that her reasons were far beyond that.  She had tried to conceal them behind a façade of only caring for the power he could bring, but Rodolphus could see all too clearly what she felt for their Master.

As a city that is set upon a hill cannot be hidden, so Bellatrix could not hide what she felt, no matter how hard she tried to.